i've had too many sad stories in one day. (just a tip for all of you, don't watch prime and the way we were in one day)  just remembering how the way we were ended makes me cry all over again. it's just so sad when movies don't end the way i want them too. when the main actor and main actress don't end up together. when you know they love each other but end up with someone else. uhhhh!!!

see... i'm still a hopeless romantic all these times.

one thing i don't like about american movies, they can be so honest at times.

uhhhh!!!

i didn't understand probably half of what the characters talked about in the way we were but the ending made up for all of it. it's so sad, so tearjerking, so hurtful and painful...

uhhhh!!!!

it's been quite some time since i last posted an entry.

i feel so tired. we're in class for just a week and the requirements and stuff are piling up like crazy. my lib book is even missing. i swear, i'll never borrow books from the library again for the rest of the school year. ang liit-liit na nga ng stipends ko, nauubos pa dahil sa library fines

on a higher note, at least i already have a concrete idea for our chem project. a proposal of which is due on monday and i still haven't started.

i'm really tired now. this so sucks.

no shopping for fatima from now on (at least until the ilc)...

uhhh... i really need to save for the thing. it's like i would die if i don't go there.

uhhh... donations of any kind are accepted.

"Nothing takes the taste out of peanut butter quite like unrequited love" -charlie brown

i signed up the stag list last friday and i felt just like crying... yes, i know, i was overreacting... but what made it harder was the fact that he was just there, sitting right beside me. i could have asked him right then and there (but of course, i didn't.) he even asked me who my prom date was. i answered him with a bitter "wala", if only to alleviate what i was feeling.

later on, while we were waiting for the str oral reports to be finished, we talked about dates. one classmate told me to just ask him to be my prom date. at that point, i had this urge to just ask him. only, my senses came in and my logical part overtook me. what has a girl to do with a guy who doesn't even like her? how can she ask a guy whose reason for going stag is because the one he liked turned him down? how i wish it was just so easy. and for the record, i can't even look him straight in the eye.

nothing's keeping me happy these days. the week started badly. and it has been since then. hell, not even the release of candy mag's jan-feb issue makes me happy (which, by the way, in all honesty, is way worse than what i expected it to be)

things about the prom is still not getting better. just hearing people talk about pisses me off, big time. talk about being bitter. the only thing that makes me look forward to it is the facct that i'll be able to dress up.

after the galit-ako-sa'yo-dahil-sa-lahat-ng-ginagawa-mo phase, i've now officially transferred into the naiilang-ako-sa'yo-period phase. it's now even worse. damn, i can't even look him straight into the eye, whenever he talks to me, there can only be two things: one, when he asks me a question, i'd answer him as briefly as possible. tipong, essay... answer as briefly as you can. when he talks to me in a declarative manner, i go dot-dot-dot. if you ask me, i know i'm being unfair both to him and to me (although i'm not so sure if he cares anyway). uhhh!!

the walk-out thing has been keeping me in a hop lately... seriously, natatakot na talaga ako sa kanya.. i don't ever wanna see her again... i feel i would melt... 2 months to go na lang.. and we're off...

but the winner of the week goes to the guys... pwede ba, tigilan niyo na ako.. binabastos niyo na ako eh... do you think actually serving a shuttlecock onto my back would be funny? alam niyo ba kung gano kabilis ang shuttlecock? alam niyo ba na ang bagay ay mas masakit tumama kapag mas mabilis? alam niyo ba hah? gusto niyo ba tapunan ko kayo isa-isa sa likod niyo ng discus? tignan natin kung hindi kayo umaray.. do you think just because i'm fat, just because i laugh at your jokes, just because i ride with your jokes although sometimes they're on me, just because i am, you can go disrespecting me, JUST LIKE THAT??? nasaan ang mga manners niyo? naturingang sa Philippine Science High School kayo nag-aaral, ganyan ang mga ugali niyo. Mahiya-hiya nga kayo!

"you can see only as far as the headlights. but you can make the whole trip that way." - e. l. doctorow

 i've just finished reading the second summer of the sisterhood this afternoon and i must say that it was better than the first one. the only thing i didn't like was that carmen's stepbrother got more exposure than i wanted him to have. (nyek, nag-feeling writer) if you know me, and you've read the book (which i bet would only be ray2 and krizelle and shayne), you'd know it's not because i don't like his character. it's of a shallower reason. it just bothers me.. the sad thing is, i think he's bound to have more exposure in the third book since he's supposedly... nah.. i don't want to spoil it for you.. i'm too good at that...

anyway...

here are two more section dividers...

"nothing takes the taste out of peanut butter quite like unrequited love." - charlie brown

"Thereare two tragedies in life. One is not to get your heart's desire. The other is to get it." - George Bernard Shaw

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in other news... i already got my gown and shoes.. clutch bag nalang and hair and make-up and prom and i'm set..

and now that i think of it, it's better not having a date.. haha.. yes.. bitterness aside..

weee!!!

yesterday, i remember myself all happy by the fact that i am stag... yes... that's true... although you don't get to spend the night with a special someone, you get to spend it with special people. it's still okay with me now. although i've made a sad realization just today.

going stag and your date prospect going stag is one thing. but you going stag and your date prospect having a date is a totally different thing.

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on a happier note, i'm already in the director's list.

a girl has got to learn these three simple steps, know them by heart and observe them religiously: CLEANSE, TONE and MOISTURIZE.

believe me... it just feels so good. it's revitalizing, refreshing and de-stressing. and i recommend nivea's skin care line. not only does it leave your skin really smooth and soft but it smells good, too. (nye, nag-plug!)

i cried the hardest  cry and laughed the hardest laugh yesterday.

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i read chinese cinderella: the story of an unwanted daughter yesterday and i cried like crazy. the book was written by adeline yen mah. the story started when she was still a kid up until she was fourteen years old. her mother died after she was born. because of this, her father and siblings considered her bad luck and made her feel unloved. things became worse when her father married another woman and had children with her stepmother.

the story was really tragic. you could feel the author's pain and you'd learn to hate the "villains". it's a really good book.. you should read it.

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meanwhile, i watched eurotrip yesterday on HBO. it was such a laugh trip. i never laughed that hard in weeks.

it's about scott - a guy who got dumped by her girlfriend (a fatter version of kristin kreuk) on graduation day for being predictable. after the breakup, he's seen chatting with a guy named mike from berlin. cooper, scott's bestfriend, warns him to stop talking to the guy because he might be gay. when mike tells scott that he'd be going to us, scott tells mike to get lost. a day later, scott finds out that mike is a common name for a girl in germany much like a michelle. convinced by cooper, they both go to germany. unfortunately, there are no flights until after a week so they decide to take a trip to london. may things take place and instead of getting straight to berlin, they go to various places in europe including paris where they meet their twin friends henny and jamie. they get into adventures of sorts.

it was such a laugh trip although there were various scenes where parental guidance is needed.

it was light although it heavily depicted what a guy could do for his girl and even change a huge part of himself.