Entries for August, 2007

nnnnoooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!! a wish was made by bittersweet_041 @ 09:46 PM

bakeeeeeeeettttttttttttttttt????????? haller fatima! earth to you! camon! remind me again why it's better to visit online shops than the blogs of your former crushes... no!!!!

be a star in my sky...

so close... yet so far... a wish was made by bittersweet_041 @ 09:10 PM

On a literal level... the game a while ago was very frustrating... i will not divulge all details because it is too frustrating and depressing to even think about it... much more write it... basta... we were close to having our FIRST win... it was almost ours... but no! FEU had to snatch it all up... ----- On a figurative level... i thought i was already there... but no! not just yet... owell... it's not that easy to forget...

be a star in my sky...

fatima's blog's new feature and other stuff a wish was made by bittersweet_041 @ 06:04 PM

ayan.. so 11 days na akong hindi naguupdate... kawawa naman ung blog ko.. mahigit isang week nang walang update... so to avoid situations like this, i've developed a new feature.. (yuck.. f na f...) so i present to you.... THE QUOTABLE QUOTE OF THE WEEK and to start of this new feature, i present to you the quotable quote of this week care of mr. x from the up college of business administration (hmmm... sino kaya un???) ... "hi fatima! wazzzup!?!?!" yikeeee... isipin na lang natin kunwari na boylet ko siya... although hindi naman talaga dahil una, di ko naman talaga siya crush (slight lang). pangalawa, may pinopormahan na ata siya. at pangatlo, syempre kung sa kanila rin lang, mas crush ko na ung friend nya.. haha... so anyway.. every week, maglalagay na ako ng quotable quote of the week para naman hindi masyadong amagin ang blog ko... ----- moving on... ang saya-saya ng araw na ito... dahil ako ay... dundudun.. NAGSHOPPING na naman... masaya pa nyan, nanlibre ang tatay ko nang shirt... haha... himala.. naisipan niyang bigla na ibili kaming magkakapatid ng shirt without pleading from us of any kind pa yan ha... sosyal! anyway.. i officially proclaim that i am a folded and hung babe... hah! f na f ko na naman... hayaan niyo nang gamitin ko ang babe... haha... kung talagang naaasiwa na kayo, isipin niyo na lang na yang babe na yan ay in reference to the babe na nasa movie (go figure!)... anyway.. ayun... nakabili rin ako ng funky gray pants sa f&h... ayiii!!! tapos bumili rin ako ng transparent na bag na may gold to bronze-ish lining sa follow your heart... ayiii!!! kaya lang sayang... 20% off ung how to walk in high heels by camilla morton sa nbs... kaya lang, wala na akong allowance kung binili ko pa sya... wish ko lang, pagbalik ko, nandun pa yun... so... kung mabait kayo at gusto niyo akong regaluhan for no reason at all, un na lang ibigay niyo sakin... ahaha... baby pink ang cover niya... 359 lang naman... less 20% pa kung binili nyo before sept15... ahaha... so.. ayan na muna... kailangan nang ipost para mabasa ni rob ung clue tungkol kay mr.x para lalo siyang mainteresado kung sino si mr.x pero hindi pa rin niya mahuhulaan (*insert evil laugh here*) and btw! congrats kay rob... dahil nanalo siya bilang 1st yr sose central board rep sa admu! yikeee.... so.. ayan na talaga! bye friends!

be a star in my sky...

vince's life and other stories a wish was made by bittersweet_041 @ 03:45 PM

(this thing was written yesterday, 18 aug 2007, saturday at around quarter to 12am ) i just reread vince's life by vince o. teves (from summit books) and it just made me think, as in really think. and for the record, i cried again, as in cried my eyes out, as in cry with matching sniffs and breaths that sounded more like gasps for air. anyway... it was clearly a love story. it centered on two close friends, a boy and a girl, who obviously loved each other (on a romantic level, of course) but were too chicken to admit it. but eventually, they had worked their ways into becoming a couple for the remaining 3 years of their college life. but that's not where it ends. as with many college couples, certain changes, mostly unavoidable, surfaced and led to their inevitable breakup. it "ended" (the book says it still has a "next" book) with the two of them living separate lives in 2 different halves of the globe although they still clearly love each other. it was a sad story, not like those movies or stories where you cry but end up smiling in the end. oh well... so what is it that made me think after reading it, aside from the fact that i am such a "thinking" person and i think (more like loom, actually) about everything i encounter? and no, it's not like i'm undergoing the exact same thing because fyi, i am a member of the nbsb club (half by choice, half by fate). it was mainly because of the growing apart thing. i am such a hater of this growing apart thing. i hated it when it happened to me when i transferred schools for high school. it was a slow agonizing death. at first, my friends and i talked on the phone every day. the days then turned into weeks, which then turned into months and then into years and finally, into nothing, aside from the really rare texts and im's and short phone calls. and now, i don't even know what's happening to them and vice-versa. i haven't even kept track of how many boyfriends they have had or if someone really close to them left or died or some other major thing in their lives. i know it was inevitable. we were friends mainly because of the fact that we were classmates and saw each other everyday. that was how grade school worked. but sometimes, it's easier to blame myself, especially during those times when i really miss them. it happened to me again a couple times in high school although it was relatively small-scale and i somehow managed to salvage what was left. i am not anti-change. in fact, i like to try new things, meet new people, see new sights. but what i really fear is losing someone or something that i truly love. i have such great emotional attachments to different things that it's hard for me to let go most of the time, even when it's the only way out. right now, i would like to believe that i am doing my best to maintain the relationships i have right now. but sooner or later, i amy have to face the fact that people do grow apart sometimes. i just wish that when that time comes, like vince, i'd be able to take it all in stride and hope for better things ahead... * to clar and ivy, i miss you guys na! i wanna see you and talk to you in person asap! * to marla and abi, i miss you so so much! i miss you gurlaloos! we are in desperate need of bonding time. so much catching up to do.... *to everyone whom i don't see regularly or as much as i used to (i.e. nico and rob), i miss you na!

10 brightened my sky...

na-inlove ka na ba? a wish was made by bittersweet_041 @ 12:30 AM

my bio classmates and i had a very weird (haha... weirder than usual ) conversation a while ago... we were talking about how emma's (my classmate in pe, too!) and my body hurt from the exercise we had for pe yesterday... we were complaining when suddenly, alistair, asked me "nainlove ka na ba?"... and honestly, i didn't know what to answer... so what happened was i just shared my "experiences with "love"" and alistair said that i was blushing the whole time... haha.. owell... anyway... ironically, the stories i made kwento to them were about my first and last crushes in pisay... anyway... so alistair asked me if i had told the guys that i liked them. and i told them that it happened only once... anyway.. when i made kwento about the last crush na, he asked me if i did say that i like him. told him that i didn't. so he asked me again if i regretted not telling him, saying what if there was something there and i should have fought for it (huwaaaatttt????)... i said no... he insisted that i should feel guilty and i should regret it... and it felt so good to actually feel that i meant what i said when i told him that i didn't regret it... hah! so the point of the whole story is that i am finally getting over it... i'm starting to move on... because now, i can really feel that what happened was what was supposed to happen. i don't regret that i didn't tell him what i really felt. before, some part of me wanted to believe that there could be something more and somehow i wanted him to know. but now, i realized that it was better off that way. i liked him but i think, i liked him for the wrong reasons. it was really satisfying to know that i have made the right decision. sabi nila ang weird ko daw kasi gusto ko siya pero ayaw ko siyang magustuhan... but maybe it was just my feminine instinct that it wouldn't work out, at least for now (haha. yakkk!!! nag-open pa daw kunwari ng possibilities) basta ayun... super saya ko lang talaga na narealize ko na super di ko talaga pinagsisisihan na di ko sinabi sa kanya... and i am happy too that i am not haunted by what-ifs anymore... yay! ----- yak... ang labo nang post ko... pero impurness... matagal-tagal na rin akong di nakakapagsukat tungkol sa "love"life ko.... ----- so clar, anong masasabi mo? :D

7 brightened my sky...

nostalgia huhuhu a wish was made by bittersweet_041 @ 06:41 PM

going to csa awhile ago and attending the family mass was quite nostalgic, even after 4 years of "technically" not being an Augustinian anymore. owell... that's life... anyway... dahil nagdrama na ako sa previous post ko, di na ako magdadrama so here.... found 2 papables awhile ago! gasp! so ano namang ginagawa ko at nakuha ko pang makahanap ng crush... pero i was behaved all throughout the mass... pramis... anyway... no.1 was one of the sacristans(gaspgasp! oh clar! you have to agree with me! there are really cute sacristans! omg! i would rot in the 2nd circle of Dante's hell!) a while ago. although i realized that i'd probably be commiting pedophile by having a crush on the guy since (1) i don't know him so he's probably not in my csa batch and there is like a very small percentage that he transferred after i transferred (2) generally, since my csa batchmates are already in 4th year, they are the oldest students studying in csa today (3) which makes no.1 younger than me no matter what... owell... anyway... no.2 is someone i know who probably knows me but we are apparently not in speaking terms since my "popularity" in csa is due to my academic chuva and his is that of the popularity we all know... in short, we are on different parts of the social ladder (yak, may ganung drama) anyway... so anyway... he was like so hot... and this was the same guy i went to kinder and prep with who i remembered borrowing a red crayon from and who later got hysterical when he found out that i made pudpud his crayon... funny... anyway... i would not name him because i am paranoid with these things... may clue lang ako... egg knows him and finds him hot too (which gives you around 3 choices)... haha.. nandamay pa ako... owell.. basta yun... so dahil nahihiya na ako sa sarili ko at sa mga pinagsasabi ko, byebye na! ---------- author's note: hindi ko talaga alam kung pano ko gagawin na ung blog ay irerepresent ako in such a way na iisipin ng mga tao na hindi lang shopping at mga lalaki ang iniisip ko... pero hindi talaga ako ganun... i am deep and profound most of the time (huwaaatttt????)... it's just that i find it hard to talk about more serious things in this blog because halfway into the post i always think that i'm not giving my thoughts justice... kaya the things i share here most of the time are those things that i could readily share with anyone... ayun lang...

1 brightened my sky...

quote of the week #2 a wish was made by bittersweet_041 @ 09:20 PM

sorry naman at ung quote of the week 2 ko ay di ko nalagay... pero meron this week.. care of the 2007 ramon magsaysay awardee for community leadership mahabir pun... ieexplain ko na lang bukas ung context ng quote sa ramon magsaysay lecture series entry ko alongside other stuff like TOFI and back-to-school jeopardy... so, here it is.. QUOTE OF THE WEEK: "The motherboards worked because the motherboards didn't know they were in a wooden box." ~Mahabir Pun so.. ayun na muna...

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