Entries for April, 2008

ILC a wish was made by bittersweet_041 @ 07:16 PM

i've kinda given up on writing in my blog since i always end up erasing everything i've written even before posting them... it's just that i seem to ruin the experience whenever i try to put it into writing... but no matter how crappy i'd make it appear to be, i just had to write about the ilc. no matter how much i write about it, i don't think i will even get close to describing how great it was. it was exhausting. we had so many problems with the logistics. the temperatures were so extreme. and whatnots... but despite all those problems, you'll just feel how much God loves you... i am still at a loss for words and i can't exactly say how i feel right now. i'm just thankful that i was able to go and really feel God's love despite how messed up i claim my life to be.

be a star in my sky...

life, in general a wish was made by bittersweet_041 @ 11:44 PM

been wanting to write a decent entry for the longest time because as you can see, this blog is officially rotting... i've long been waiting for the muses to come but they seem to avoid me like the plague... and whenever i try to read the blog of other people, i get discouraged even more because as you can see, my life is kinda B-O-R-I-N-G. no, actually, it is.... but then i realized, pleasing people with my adventures or what-not is not the main goal of this thing. i mean, yeah, it might be a plus but it's not the end-all be-all of my blog, right... so yeah.. that kinda encouraged me to write again... yay! and what better way to start by writing about the school year that was -- well at least for most people since i still have pe to worry about... adjusting was a lot harder... at least compared to what happened in high school... there were really bouts of loneliness and depression. there were numerous times when i just wanted to go back in time and just stay in high school forever... but then, we all need to grow up sometime. and at least i'm thankful that i really feel that i was put in the right university... i so love up... it's physically, mentally and emotionally exhausting but the simple things just make you appreciate the beauty of it all... i'm also glad that i'm loving my course more and more... i still have to adjust to the people and be more friendly but at least i love the teachers... they're all friendly and helpful and not scary at all... :D i'm also glad that i kinda feel that i'm growing more independent each day... i already know how to commute to up from my house and vice-versa... my parents are allowing me to go anywhere na practically around the whole metro... so it's a-okay! i've also learned how to budget.. i mean i haven't really saved except for the small amount that's in my bank account but at least i didn't have to ask my parents for extra money for stuff that's outside academic boundaries.. :D and i'm gonna work soon, too... yay... magiging biggie na si piggie! so generally, it was a good year.. i've had so many new experiences... and although i certainly miss a lot of people especially my really close friends whom i only get to see every so often, i'm happy with how the past school year turned out... feeling ko talaga, prineprep na ako for the "real" world... and besides, life is not always a bed of roses... kaya all is well. :D

be a star in my sky...

emo!!! a wish was made by bittersweet_041 @ 12:34 AM

i hate feeling this way, having what-ifs in my brain. and the worst part is the fact that i can't change even a bit of the things that happened... i didn't have a choice back then, in the first place.. ----- i feel bad, looking back on the things that i've done... i just realized that back in grade school, i was such a bitch... yes... i said it... i was a bitch.. thank goodness i'm not now... at least, i'd like to think so... but then again, i guess, we were all bitches back then, secretly yapping at each other... ----- i wish i could do something more productive this summer. i sort of regret not prerog-ing for math54... i've been uber unproductive and i can just feel all the weight i'm gaining by the second. it doesn't help that there is an overload of pringles, chocolates and mangoes in our house today... i just wish i could start with the job soon so i couldn't stay up late which means that i wouldn't be able to go online which will make everything a lot easier for me. because then, i wouldn't really feel how my life kinda sucks... i kinda like it better back when there was school to worry about... at least i can blame everything on it... it sucks not having a scapegoat... ----- okay... i'm being too emo right now so i'll sign off.. tata!

3 brightened my sky...